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Sunday 31 December 2017

❤️ 05th May 2015 - Journal




Ok, they want me to kill myself don't they? I cannot see any other way out of this. This has gone well beyond 'Tough Love'. They continue to lie to me, but EVERYONE knows the truth. Well, not the full extent. You'd be shocked if you knew the full list of evil things they've done to me under the guise of 'psychosis'

I used to love them so much. I'll never love them again now. I'll never be grateful of what they've done. I'll never say thanks mum and dad for the complete destruction of my life.

Shame they didn't do psychosis in my session with my drugs worker (they have intruded on my privacy before with my key workers). Coz when I told Jo I gave them my drugs and works, yet I'm still tormented like an animal, her eyes pricked with tears. She knows what a feat that was for me to do. Then to still be tormented. They have no idea. They have no idea about ADHD. Nothing. J* begged for her to make an appointment to see them so she could try to make them see what a huge effort on my behalf and perhaps I could do with a break. I said no. Why bother. They didn't want to see Dr P**. Fuck it.

You don't know the full extent of what they've done to me. I won't even be able to ever tell everything. Because it's so fucking sick. No one would believe me. I don't even believe myself at times. This is my mum and dad. Why won't they help me?

I was LOCKED AWAY for being honest about what they're doing to me. Yes, they're so evil no one believes this could possibly be real. It must be psychosis. But nothing listed below is beyond the realm of human capability. This is what my loving parents have done to me when I needed their help. When I cried and cried. When I pleaded. When I begged. When I gave them the fucking damn drugs and my works. Unlike real psychosis mine doesn't go away when I stop drugs.

- get loads of cars like dad's Ford Focus. Similar number plates, hub caps (dad changes his and drives with a fake EK number plate), in grey, silver and black. Have loads down Oakway on day I'm petrified of being illegally sectioned again. Have loads wherever I go. Pershore Grove. Rosendale.

- install CCTV in my house and their house. Then lie to Doctor and say I am imagining this. Forget that I used to be able to ask CCTV psychosis for things that would appear the next day. Also know information I haven't disclosed to you only psychosis. CCTV circuits where found in all of my light bulbs 






- give her a bugged iPhone and prevent her from upgrading. Watch her every phone movement. Access camera and microphone at your leisure

- scream 'YOU'RE ON DRUGS' or just get angry when confronted

- don't what ever you do, act like parents. Still torment her when drug free, sober etc.

- bug her iPad which she realises strange men are following at night. So  petrified she leaves in a bush.

- hang around her bedroom window whilst unlawfully detained in Springfield

- have her Key Worker appear in another borough and enter the house you're (I mean the psychosis) staying at

- get the community involved by mass stalking me.  Have thousands of strangers photo me and text my location. I don't deserve the basic human right of privacy 



- get houses involved to have pretend numbers on their door. THERE IS NO NUMBER 13 OAKWAY IDIOTS. BAD LUCK

- contaminate her gear with any old shit. Don't research what the fuck you're putting into something she will inject herself with. When she has black rotting flesh realise you made a bad choice and swap gear for less poisonous one

(One of two rotting parts of flesh)

- when you realise Springfield isn't really a suitable place for her rather than get her out, hire people to pretend they too took an overdose and that's why they're there. Get one to try to get her re-sectioned, although you know this is highly illegal

(Glen the spy's note book about getting me Sectioned)

- tell community she's a dirty junkie on crack and smack so this intrusive behaviour is for her own good (neglect to say it's legal Ritalin she's taking for her ADHD). This will ensure they hound her like a rabies ridden dog. Even get them to shout 'CRACK HEAD' in public

- move her floor boards up and down so she's petrified of staying in her own home. Also knock door, move internal door handles. Have people enter her house. When she spends £150 (last money) on changing locks, have her come home to an open house with spare keys on the side

- when caught out (in the park) pretend your Clark Kent, where crap NHS glasses, your son's top, and squint your eyes when she sees your face

- constantly lie and say you're 'staying away'. Go next door and torment her with your son. Nice family bonding where you make the black sheep think she's mad

- be seen in public and in your car then lie and say you were at work

- be heard in neighbours houses' in adjacent rooms to where she's (petrified) staying. Then torment her.

- still lie when neighbour and counsellor have slipped up and told her the truth

- have large vehicles play a sound so it sounds like a helicopter is above her (talk about prisoner of war treatment)

- have loads of bright white lights where ever she goes. Even central London where she's still hounded like a dog (Terrorist, rapist, murderer, treason.... This cannot be because little no one Gemma take a drugs. Coz all of this just makes me take a hell of a lot more)

- large helicopter presence around me

- shop staff ignore me or lie saying machines not working.

- have strangers read my text messages when sitting 4 rows behind me

- get my counsellor to lie (she did tell truth which is why I went SPRINGFIELD)

- get my friend to lie and all of a sudden I have psychosis at his house. This was my last 'safe' place where I could sleep

- take all her shoes and make one too small for her to wear

Wednesday 27 December 2017

❤️ Complete List Of The Abuse

I’ve got so many posts detailing the abuse my family have done to me, I’ve decided to compile them into one big list of abuse. This list’s TBC status will remain.

27/12/2017 - Stole 25 10mg Diazepam off me

26/12/2017 - Made holes in the needles I was using (very concerning since these haven’t left my side. They’re in the same wallet as the tablets which went missing which leads on to...)

25/12/18 - Entering my property unauthorised. I have an additional bike lock on the back door and I will to start leaving lots of stuff by my front door again

24/12/17 - Steal the few belongings I have! Normally stuff I need, like tools and kitchen utensils. The tools have been ‘mostly’ returned. The tin opener and knives however. Anyway I enjoy using a hammer, screw and pilers. More of a chance of having a accident which means I’m in hospital off work, getting paid.

23/12/17 - Oh and to ensure I can’t superglue any holes in my needles, they mix any glue i own with nail varnish remover.

22/12/17 - Then, they add water to my nail varnish remover rendering that useless.

01/06/15 - destroyed my hand written diaries 


TBC!!!!

#iwillbefamous #thetruth #Itsnotaboutthedrugs @Gemma_Stalked

❤️ 14th June 2008 - Boyfriend Dramas

Wake up and go Greggs. When I get back R** and J*** have gone. Admittedly I was not in the best mood with R** when I woke up. Upset he did a runner whilst I was gone out. When I got back I thought he was in the front room with J***. Took me a while to realise I was alone!

❤️ Bizarre Things I Like

Stian Paulsen


Norwegian racing driver



Things I don’t like

Bullshit

❤️ Unicorn Duck



This post is complete bollox by the way. I’m purely writing it as this blog is becoming a complete memoir of my life, and I don’t want to forget this nifty little song I’ve created.

So I went to my newsagents and they are selling Unicorn Ducks. There’s quite a few on Amazon. They’re bath toys and light up when they are in contact with the water.

By the time I had walked the 5 minutes back to mine, I had composed a wicked little theme tune for the little creation I had just purchased.

It’s to the same tune as The Little Mermaid’s Under The Sea

Unicorn duck
Unicorn duck 
God created
This awful hybrid 
When you both fucked
How did the duck get it’s dick in?
Other way round I can’t begin
Is it a sin?
No it’s a win
Coz Unicorn duck



I started to write a verse two, but was feeling a little morbid at the time

It’s screaming in pain
It’s screaming in pain 
Constantly fits
Epileptic
It’s got half a brain
Can hear, talk nor speak
Science has created a fucked freak....

Can’t think of a last line. 

And if you’ve actually read this far, please question your own sanity!!

Anyway, just one of the million, random thought of a person with ADHD.

Anyway copyright to The Famous Junkie 2018.

❤️ 09th March 2018 - Journal

Well my house sale has completed.


It’s the final count down.

I can’t wait until I don’t have to work and I can focus my time on getting the truth out and punishing my abusers.

I already have a weird ‘unhealthy’ number of TV casting people following my Twitter accounts. I’ve already had the offer of a book / film. 

I know we all have to pretend I don’t know... problem is, people slip up. And they have. We all know that
I’m ‘the girl from the Sun’. You’ve fucking blabbed enough times. 

Using drugs doesn’t impair someone’s hearing you know!!! 

I’m excited. 

I know... this willl be big. Fucking big. And that means money. Lots of money. So I’d like to thank the nasty POS’s. You’ve made this big... how did you think this would end?? The whole world would carry on pretending for you?? 

Yeah, that’s why a nobody, like me, has ITV emailing them. 

And, all four of them, prosecuted. For sure. Nice but Dim never took my offer. So all of them. True to my word.

So, this first film / book offer person, she’s followed my blog since day dot. Crazy that mum, dad?!!! 

I’m a ‘nobody’. Being famous is just a side effect of my poor little drug abused brain. Yes, I know for your WHOLE life, until the dick heads interfered, Drugs calmed you down, helped you clean and tidy, and even though you’re using less... nope, the formula for crack has changed. It now gives you psychosis.

You cunts. You fucking cunts. You’ve had SOOOO many chances.

If they had fucking left it, when I stopped sticking speed in my arm daily, I maybe... maybe... could have believed it was in my head.

But you erratic, inconsistent, dick head fucks.

Even my drugs psyche, WOULD NOT LIE TO ME! She knew your fucking sick games. 

She said little, but kept her oath as a doctor. And didn’t lie. And my counsellor. Same again, but she was honest to get me in the nut house, and on numerous occasions her replies / reactions were indicative that this was far from being a creation in my head.

I’ve given you chance after chance.

You carried on.

You destroyed me.

But THANK YOU.

Because I BUILT MYSELF BACK UP.

I’m a million times better without your detrimental, negative energy impeding on my natural kind, loving nature.

I’ve escaped you.

No longer need full time work. So I can really focus on getting this into some sort of autobiography.

Then publishers.

And, as I’m so fucking famous, (thanks to you!) and my life has been so fucking crazy (this is half and half. Without your interference, my life is still sex

❤️ 05th March 2018 - Racism!

So, I saved hardly any Ritalin to get me through this morning, to the GP and to the chemist. This meant by the time I was on the bus to the chemist I was as drowsy as fuck.
Little Caribbean granny sits near me and proper slurps her drink. Naturally, I turn to look, which I have no control over. Just like someone with Tourette’s who can’t control their ticks. I can’t control looking at distractions.
Well this granny had a major chip on her shoulder, so cussing commenced. 
I was too drowsy to react, but as she was getting more aggressive I stuck my camera on.
Queue torrent of abuse..
So I’m poor (regardless of the £1,000 device recoding her). I threw in I was retiring at 36, to hear white people are lazy... WTF! I bet a million pounds she was returning to a council house!! So I added I wasn’t lazy and had made my money.
Then the racism started. Made herself look like a complete crazy loon. I’m tempted to upload it to you tube, as police love a video with race hate in it.
The most shocking aspect was bar a few raised eye brows when I questioned what the colour of my skin had to do with it, no on reacted.
So my question... why is it ok to be racist, as long as its white (British), you dislike?
I’m gonna screen shot the crazy old bitch and get her face on this blog. In fact, I need to open a YouTube account for this blog, and get the video up.
Crazy bitter racist lady below
Thankfully, for this old bitch, I was wayyyyyyy to drowsy to react. 
This also makes me wonder, why immigrate to the UK when you harbour such a strong hatred for white people?  Now I truly love the vibrance that ethnic minorities bring to the UK, but it’s a predominantly white country. 
One would suggest, if you hate my race so much you quite happy to engage in disgusting public displays like this, you return to where you come from.
The UK doesn’t need dispicable people like you. 



❤️ 21st April 2008 - Boyfriend Dramas

Still upset from yesterday but agree to go over to talk. I also needed to look for my cash card. This was agreed around 7pm, I would get there around 10pm. Decide to try and make things up, have a bath, do tan and decide I will go wearing underwear, high heels and a long coat. And when he opens the door I’ll flash him. 

At 9pm I text him and tell him I have a surprise, make sure he’s home by 10.30pm.

He’s cool with that.

At 10.10pm I text to say I’m leaving. At 10.20pm he texts to say he’s baby sitting at P****’s with C****.

Vexed, I say he said he would be home. He tells me P****’s is only down the road, so it is home and I should come there.

I remind him about the surprise and having to be at home.

Eventually I tell him what the surprise is and that I can’t come to P****’s while C**** is there. 

He thought it was around 7pm-8pm (WTF??).

P**** has only just left. I go home, get changed and get to his at midnight in the end.

❤️ здравей българия 🇧🇬

Благодаря ви за четенето


Аз съм любезен, добър човек


не вярвайте на лъжите


🇧🇬 ❤️

❤️ Unknown Note

Why
I need you

I’m so sad and hopeless

Disappear?

Die?

Which one.

❤️ Lyrics - Black Widow

This twisted cat and mouse game

Always starts the same
You hurt me, so I use,
It’s a mandala of pain 
You fucked with my head
And messed with my brain 
They even sectioned me
Coz I sounded insane
Now I hate you so much it really hurts 
Never fathomed you’d treat me dirt 
Now I look at you, and I feel so damn much shame 
Everything fucked and you’ll get the blame

❤️ Office Pranks 101

Here’s another gem.


Wait until your colleague leaves their PC unlocked.

Create a folder on their desk top called Porn. Extra points for a fetish and then the word porn.

Hit screen print.

Paste into Word.

Save the picture. Remove the actual folder on the desktop.

Then go to settings and change the wallpaper to the newly saved picture.

Enjoy when colleague spends ages on the phone to IT, unable to remove the folder saying porn.

❤️ 10th July 2008 - Boyfriend Dramas

Tired of crying 
Weekend alone
Ignored for days 
Let down
Inconsiderate 
Tried kids, S*****, family
(Hating me, over powering, friends)

This is my last diary entry. We split up from July... had a night of passion in October / November). I forgot to take my pill. I ended up pregnant. R**, still being deceitful over our relationship with his baby mother was adamant he didn’t want to keep our child. I was temping so no maternity pay. I doubt I’ll ever carry a child again. I would have a 9 year old child now, and no doubt a very different life.

❤️ 01st June 2015 - Journal

Wow oh wow!


I just found a pot of gold!!


A pack of Blue Stuff!


My favourite legal high which is now illegal to sell. I'm not publishing this blog until a good week has passed.


Wouldn't want to get psychosis and when your mum and dad are stalking you blogging / making thIs fact knowledgeable will only result in you suffering at their evil hands.


There's only a little 1/2 gramme say. I'm sharing so 1/4 a gramme of gorgeous blue crystals with my friend.


And even though from April 14th - 30th I was probably using less due to psychosis hounding me (my parents, the Junkettes), and my gear being contaminated, unlike then, there's no whipsering (courtesy of the little white speaker they tend to shove under my floor boards in an attempt to have their single daughter living alone think she's mad. I didn't . I do freak over the security of my home though so thanks for the paranoia).


Not seeing my baldy Fat Cunt sibling in a wig. Accompanied by B***** his girlfriends little sister (who has dip dyed hair, take note nice but Dim). How the fuck did he get a freedom pass, and why? Please feel free to top up my Oyster.


No flashes from phone cameras.


No removing items from my bag.


No disappearing keys (I hope you've got my Mercedes Kompressor Key)


No 'shhhh', 'mum', 'sigh' *yawn*


Back like before they discovered I was banging up. Just me, speed and a beautiful sense of calm in my head.


Yes in the absence of Ritalin aka methylphenidate, ethylphenidate works rather well when used sensibly.


Sensibly 1/4 to 1/2 a day intravenously. Still excessive but I'm not chewing my face off with Bambi deer eyes (massive pupils).

❤️ 01st June 2015 - Journal

There's no point trying to keep a written diary. My only record of the horrendous actions done to me appears to be missing


Not happy with the iPad they took the pad!


Today me and my friend discovered the legal high shop is giving away old stock they can't sell. Bought some sleepers and got some ethylphenidate.


Slept at N**’s. Got Fat Cunt psychosis (where my brother hacks my mobile phone, and the speaker. So he can read what I am writing on my screen and read it out as I write it)




#iwillbefamous #thetruth #Itsnotaboutthedrugs @Gemma_Stalked

❤️ 13th June 2015 - You Lied Again


'You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane'



I'm broken

Article pulled from net so I cannot be compensated for loss of earnings. My parents, only assisted by my friend taking the photo, only sold an article to the most read tabloid newspaper of me smoking crack cocaine. A red top too, how crass. I would have chosen the Daily Mail at least.

This is why I am famous. Upon hearing a fake phone call telling the truth about my
ADHD, someone took pity on me, on a bus and told me it was 'The Sun'

No wonder when I called them and told them of a person working for the old Bill, breaking the law, replied 'go to hospital' what the fuck!? I'm telling you a Metropolitan Police employee has committed a variety of crimes and you reply go hospital!

Needless to say it all fell into place.

They've ruined my whole life and it only made me use more.

Now I've begged for the help I need. Not the nut house.

Rehab and detox.

They tormented me all night knowing it only increases my using.

The lie is too big to hide forever. It breaks me that they continue to torment me when I've begged knowing I can't do it alone.

Their lie and making me believe I'm crazy is more important than me getting well 

And I really want it coz I'll get my meds back

I want it for ME, not them. They just made me use more.

The lie is too big, and their denial as I obtain more info breaks me.

I asked they they book rehab and detox, say nothing, just leave me the dates written down.

I've begged the drugs team and my appointment for funding turned out to be. With a psychiatrist to see if I'm crazy.

They want me locked in the nut house wen I'm sane. They won't give me the help I need and want.

Most parents try rehab first

I cannot live a lie and if unable to clear my name I'm leaving UK. They've destroyed so much and place obstacles in my attempts at fixing things.

Even when I stopped using for a week. Handed works and gear.. I was still tormented

I cannot win. 

I cannot live a lie. As always stupidly optimistic they'll. be parents and help.

But it ain't happened yet

Viva la espania?

❤️ 29th June 2015 - Journal



17 days no pins. Even ensured a clean piss test in an attempt to get my Ritalin back last week when I saw my psychiatric nurse at MDART

I've smoked some crack but remain drug free after Friday so I would be clean on Tuesday. This seriously removes the ability to sustain an addiction.

Only Buprenorphine (weaker tablet form of methadone) and cannabis.

I've had one diazepam from my mate, but stick to cannabis and the odd zopiclone my parents let me have.

I'm going to insist on a urine test each week I go MDART and will ensure its clean. This stops me using every day or every other. I'll cut down to twice a week. So practically halve my using.

Good news!! I have my first meeting with the social worker who is trying to secure funding so I can go rehab! Friday. I doubt I'll see a rehab for at least a month, but I've got a light in my tunnel.

At last!

J**





❤️ 07th July 2015 - Do You Have Old Copies of The Sun

 I’m after hoarders who may have old copies of The Sun



The article of me smoking crack cocaine has been removed so I am unable to see it.

I have a feeling it may have been a web article.

However I've noticed my father's absence in purchasing his favourite newspaper, including last Sunday's.

I will pay £500 for anyone who can send me the original article, and £100 for the updates which no doubt are present.

My internet is tracked and censored to prevent me seeing this.

Anyone with these please post a message and I'll follow up.

Oh, and here's a pic of me smoking crack.







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