Well on Friday we finished up the coke I had ordered and N purchased more, as well as some MDMA. We banged up the coke (with N clearly saving himself some extra for later... as he banged up MD and we never bang up MD, we do it rectally).
Anyway I wa finally out of sleeping tablets, son naturally had rebound insomnia. The next day after MD you generally feel like shit. Add no sleep and I felt horrendous.
I saw my fathers work van around 4.30pm after all my viewings (which I'm sure went terrible due to my exhaustion and the house not being perfect), and I finally crashed on the sofa.
When I woke later I was clearly not being watched, so they obviously buggered off. The extension on the Asian family's house had the light off too, which is where I expect they hide out.
Anyway, got some sleepers and had a great nights sleep.
Woke up this morning and noticed I was achy... and no matter how much Ritalin I took, I couldn't wake up. Stayed crashed on the sofa.. then at 2pm I remembered I only took 2mgs of subbie yesterday rather than 4mgs (we have banged up b recently, so my tolerance is high again). Noticed I was gettting hot sweats too... so went and took some.
I'm awake now! Yay!
But most of the day has been wasted... we needed to go shopping.
I hate the way opiate withdrawal manifests so differently from day to day. It never starts the same. You might get the shits one day, anxiety the next and like today, you might just feel tired.
I would be on a lower amount if it wasn't for all the anxiety my family cause. I know I end up taking more because my anxiety and I assume I need it.
Although last week was bad drugs wise, I wasn't abused too much. Bar them making me and Nie paranoid, I was generally left alone.
Fingers crossed I can get one of those jobs. Then I can move to a new property in the commuter belt around London.
Otherwise role on my shares being sold and the money in my account.
Right, I need to go... must get ready and go bleeding shopping.
Jay x
