❤️ 23rd November 2017 - What The Terrible Junkie Did Today

Ok... so here’s my day

1) man on the broken northern line, trying to connect to WiFi... most likely to update you all on my location, and couldn’t connect.

I realised by entering my email address in Wi-fi Extra it connected. I shared this knowledge with him

2) Man came in without an appointment. So I had 20 mins for lunch so I could see him. He was angry at first, but once I started talking to him about the programme and the help I could provide he really cheered up. Got him hooked onto CSCS. He’s a single dad. It’s a pleasure helping people like him. He’s also a tattoo artist. Maybe I’ll be treated to a free tattoo when I get him employment!! My candidate last week made me a bracelet for helping him get his driving license.

3) My colleague is off with a bereavement. So I also registered her customer.

4) My candidate J**, lovely boy but he’s a pain in the bum. Couldn’t make it to the office so we could refund his travel. So I met him at the tube station and reimbursed him out of my own money. Of course I’ll get this back tomorrow, but what I did, was above and beyond the remit of my role.

So maybe instead of making MY life a misery, because of the LIES you’ve been told, you read my blog and see that you shouldn’t judge a book, based on some retarded critic’s review, when the critic never read the book in the first place and the review you read was complete fabrication.

Hopefully seeing my R*** tomorrow too!! 

Yay!!

#iwillbefamous #thetruth #Itsnotaboutthedrugs @Gemma_Stalked

❤️ Junkies And Credit Scores

I might be a junkie, but it doesn’t mean I’m on benefits and in debt.

My recent credit score I’m rather proud of, seeing my rough patch I’m just recovering from 

So to all my haters, I’m considerably richer than you! 954/999

#itsnotaboutthedrugs

@Gemma_Stalked

❤️ Definition Of........

Ok, what kind of person am I describing 

- Incredibly high IQ, around the 150 mark

- Completed the Mensa tests for adults in the newspapers aged 7

- Raised with a strict catholic father

- Middle class

- Convent education 

- 10 GCSE’s, 4 A Levels, 1 AS Level, NVQ 2 & 3, CPCAB Level 2 Counselling, IOSH Qualified

- Safeguarding Officer

- First Aid qualified

- Fire Marshall

- Works in Employability helping people on benefits over come their barriers and secure employment 

- Work has been award winning

- Donates to cancer and animal charities

- Volunteered at Cats Protection

- Sky dived for Battersea Dogs Home

- polite, please, thank you, may I?

- honest 

- home owner (single too)

- psychic 

- believe in karma

- does fake tan

- curls her hair

- hair extensions 

- nice clothes

- clean

- wears make up

- owns a hot tub

- owns a pedigree pet

- rescues animals

- lives in a presentable home

- works

- has sky TV

- has broadband 

- owns an iPhone X

- has designer handbags

- is kind

- loyal

- articulate

- intelligent 

- owns expensive jewellery 

- has a house full of possessions 

- is empathetic 

- Is buying a 3 bed house, with ensuite, parking, garden, downstairs cloakroom room, OUTRIGHT. Yes that right, single (much hated) female, and mortgage free at 36

.....

- they also smoke crack

- take heroin

- addicted to opiates 

- injects drugs

- uses cocaine

- addicted to benzo

- has been detox and rehab

- and failed all three times 

- has been sectioned 

- has to hide the tracks on her hands before work

- has ADHD 

- cannot function without opiates or Ritalin 

- feels nothing from Ritalin anymore, she cannot get out of bed without it 

- no high from opiates, need to stave off sickness and feel normal.

You can bet if you work in a company of 100 or more staff. You’ll work with an addict... maybe even a junkie like me. Whether it’s OTC codeine or IV heroin (probably done during a break at work), we have the ability to have addictions and be functional.

Bar major fuck ups, we tend to work hard. We’re good employees. We need our payslips to fund our habits. We do not want to lose our jobs. 

You may notice certain behaviours, and fall for our excuses. Sweats - cold or flue, exhaustion - insomnia, vomiting - 24 hour bug, most likely we’re skinny to small. Size 4 to size 10. We’ll eat a lot at work (as when we’re at home we’re using and not eating), but we have ‘fast metabolisms’. Our energy levels can dramatically change. This is when we’ve used. But we’re working hard now, so you say nothing. We take lunch at 10.30am To go to the bank as it’s too busy at lunch time. After that we frequently go for a smoke or to the toilet. We may get anxious and edgy when we’re running out.

But our positive aspects outweigh the quirks.

So don’t judge me. You don’t judge those you know, you just aren’t aware about. I was smoking crack and heroin all day every day whilst employed.

- I’m a junkie 

#itsnotaboutthedrugs

@Gemma_Stalked

❤️ 11th October 2017 - I Love My Job!

I LOVE my job.

Today I saw two clients. I enjoyed helping them both. One has a reputation for being negative and lazy.... he wasn’t with me! Actually got him to apply for a job with the Royal Mail! And set him homework to check their website for more jobs.... and he ‘was’ dead against training / education.. even managed to change his mind on that one.

The other appointment was just an introduction, and he was lovely too.

Yesterday I ended up having to do a registration completely on my own... my mentor was on a conference call. Well she said conference call, it sounded more like a personal chat. Anyway, did it... all on my own... perfect!!!

I never got one registration correct in my last role, it was so complicated. And if there was one error, you couldn’t correct it. The two hour registration session had to be respected.

Disclosed to two colleagues how depressed I was before I got the job offer and my intentions. I hope I didn’t shock them.

So, whilst I will always be an addict (even if I’m clean), and most likely always be a junkie (banging up occasionally), it doesn’t mean I cannot be a person who contributes positively to society.

God sent me two angels on Wednesday the 27th.

J and A

#itsnotaboutthedrugs

@Gemma_Stalked