❤️ Obsession

What is wrong with you K***? I I don’t want to be your friend anymore. Most adults would just accept that. But not you, you are so sad you had to hunt me down from my blog which isn’t easy to find,

After you found me and commented, when I didn’t respond to you at 6:30 AM on a Saturday morning (because most people are asleep at 6:30 AM on a Saturday morning, when they work the whole week K***  then you continue to comment, only to slag me off.... well when you’re on your own you sent comments trying to befriend me again.

Get over it. I don’t want to be your friend, I don’t want nothing to do with you. You’re a hep C riddled, over weight, rottened teeth, no hoper. All your kids are in care, costing ME, the TAX PAYER a fortune. Because YOU chose DRUGS over your children. You’re disgusting.

I don’t want nothing to do with you. Nor does N. In fact, you even made him throw up a little bit in his mouth, when you begged him to get you pregnant, you’re that disgusting.

Slag me off all you like but I OWN my 3 Bed house with £200,000 EQUITY. You probably don’t understand that big word. But equity means how much of the money is mine!!! 

So if I live long enough to sell it, I’ll have £200,000 put in my bank.

I also earn £30,000 a year. Which is more than what you’ve ever earned in your life.

I can get a contract phone... a credit card... don’t need to nick my mates DVDs to go Crack Convertors to buy a ten rock.

Your pathetic... and watch out.. you don’t know what I am capable of and what I’ve already done and got away with!!!

Remember... my dad is a senior member of the Metropolitan Police, so if you do turn up here, that’s what you’ll be dealing with.

I promised K***  if she carried on abusing me, her face was going on my blog. So here she is. If she carries on posting, more people view my blog. I’m 

K*** abusing me and getting her crack Head Mate in on it.

When I first met Kate in detox, she broke the DVD player and poured some next girl (who took a instant dislike to me, coz we both had ADHD, but I was worse.. hyper, bubbly, impulsive in a fun cheeky way). So Kate blamed me, made them all hate me, threw hot tea over me... but stupidly texted another resident not to tell the truth.

Queue everyone hating me and being damn nasty and rude at breakfast. Queue Kate kicked out. Queue a lot of sheepish apologies.

Then she steals and has drugged me. Was trying to get N to fuck her

For a brown baby, and con me out of a mobile phone contract in my name for her. Haha, I’m not dumb bitch.

More abuse.

Saying my house is dirty. I’m still on Right Move, so pics of my house available.

More lies about stealing from me... she forgets my whole house is covered in CCTV

Deflection... she loves pointing out what you’ve done wrong, or someone else, when she’s done wrong 

Now trying to be a concerned friend 

So K***  if you want people to see this, carry on commenting.

Shop keepers take note!

#itsnotaboutthedrugs - In my case, but it K***’s case, it is

@Gemma_Stalked

❤️ What My ‘Loving’ Family Do - Big Up To You For Supporting The Wankers!!!!

Just to up date you all on these nasty pieces of shit and also a big thank you for supporting their trail of destruction!!!

So... last night... NO DRUGS AND NO ALCOHOL. But as I’ve mentioned before, this isn’t a campaign to get me clean. This is a campaign to push me to kill my self!!!!!

So, neither of my two alarms woke me up this morning. My friend’s phone didn’t wake him either. But his phone ringing woke me... at 8.20am. 

My phone had been snoozing... all by itself... and the alarm tone continued when I was finally awake.

For a normal person, this would be fucking bizarre. When you have a family trying to destroy you, this is normal.

Number 2.... my Concerta disappeared!!!! It better be at home or the police will be called.

Finally re-set my Cubit (bit coin) account, sent money to Dream Market account. I have bought the most dodgy benzos recently..... they’re definitely cut with all sorts of shit.

I’m blacking out when I consume alcohol, Zopiclone styleee (benzos are quite fun when mixed with a small amount of alcohol, Zopiclone makes you black out. To black out on benzos you need to be very drunk and consume quite a bit).

Anyway after I swapped from these shitty tablets to proper pharmacy ones, I was able to dramatically cut my dosage right down. Things like my memory improved and the cloud in my head, which was effecting my day to day cognitive ability began to evaporate.

I attempted to re-purchase the decent, pharmacy grade benzos, but the seller was on holiday. Due to my money being stolen from my account last time and my order ‘vanishing’, I did, under no circumstances, want to linger around and find a decent replacement.

So, wanting to purchase quick, I went into my order history and clicked on the dodgy benzo guy’s page and bought them. 

They’re so cheap, they cost £25 for 100 tablets. They are not good for you though.

My family are WELL aware my drugs psychiatrist has told me I am not to suddenly stop taking them and if I do run out I am to do to A&E.

Why would they steal the money I had in my account to purchase diazepam?

Why would they cancel / steal my order?

Surely they want me to withdraw and stop taking them?

As I’ve said... THIS CAMPAIGN IS NOT ABOUT THE DRUGS 

#Itsnotaboutthedrugs @Gemma_Stalked

❤️ 25th August 2017 - Journal

Well it's like it's 1987 where I live... I have two postal deliveries.

Unfortunately mine aren't both from the Royal Mail.

One is legit and the second is my family replacing the post they have previously stolen.

So my veneers from China, which arrived in a brown padded envelope, just like my drug deliveries, arrived later.

Haha! Cunts!! They're watching me so they know I am not getting my drugs delivered elsewhere.

Had an offer of £320,000 on the house. I'm after £325,000. The estate agent told the person £330,000, but I messaged them to say I'd accept £325,000 so they hopefully make the offer.

My mate in Plymouth is up for house hunting with me. She needs a room to rent, so I have a housemate already. The £300 from the DSS will come in handy. And she's a nice girl.

Yesterday I spent the day distracting myself. I'm only writing this now coz I'm on coke. 

I spent hours playing a game.

I can't deal with thinking.

I hurt too much. 

On a plus note, I have around 90 zopiclone, are 15 diazepam, 60 propranolol and about 24mg of buprenorphine. Enough to OD.

❤️ 22nd August 2017 - Journal

Today I woke up to a letter posted through my letter box. As if the postman had been. Only for the postman to arrive about half an hour later and put two items through my door. The first letter was a letter about stopping my mortgage for two months. Clearly someone had taken it and read through it. 

I am really sad about leaving London, but little things like this remind me I have no choice.

I was also at the library trying to apply for a job, but my stupid security camera kept on moving and I couldn't get it to face the door again. This caused so much anxiety because they keep coming into my house without permission, I had to leave.

I am going to buy alcohol now.... anything to releave these horrible feelings I am subjected to daily, because of them.