❤️ What My ‘Loving’ Family Do - Big Up To You For Supporting The Wankers!!!!

Just to up date you all on these nasty pieces of shit and also a big thank you for supporting their trail of destruction!!!

So... last night... NO DRUGS AND NO ALCOHOL. But as I’ve mentioned before, this isn’t a campaign to get me clean. This is a campaign to push me to kill my self!!!!!

So, neither of my two alarms woke me up this morning. My friend’s phone didn’t wake him either. But his phone ringing woke me... at 8.20am. 

My phone had been snoozing... all by itself... and the alarm tone continued when I was finally awake.

For a normal person, this would be fucking bizarre. When you have a family trying to destroy you, this is normal.

Number 2.... my Concerta disappeared!!!! It better be at home or the police will be called.

Finally re-set my Cubit (bit coin) account, sent money to Dream Market account. I have bought the most dodgy benzos recently..... they’re definitely cut with all sorts of shit.

I’m blacking out when I consume alcohol, Zopiclone styleee (benzos are quite fun when mixed with a small amount of alcohol, Zopiclone makes you black out. To black out on benzos you need to be very drunk and consume quite a bit).

Anyway after I swapped from these shitty tablets to proper pharmacy ones, I was able to dramatically cut my dosage right down. Things like my memory improved and the cloud in my head, which was effecting my day to day cognitive ability began to evaporate.

I attempted to re-purchase the decent, pharmacy grade benzos, but the seller was on holiday. Due to my money being stolen from my account last time and my order ‘vanishing’, I did, under no circumstances, want to linger around and find a decent replacement.

So, wanting to purchase quick, I went into my order history and clicked on the dodgy benzo guy’s page and bought them. 

They’re so cheap, they cost £25 for 100 tablets. They are not good for you though.

My family are WELL aware my drugs psychiatrist has told me I am not to suddenly stop taking them and if I do run out I am to do to A&E.

Why would they steal the money I had in my account to purchase diazepam?

Why would they cancel / steal my order?

Surely they want me to withdraw and stop taking them?

As I’ve said... THIS CAMPAIGN IS NOT ABOUT THE DRUGS 

#Itsnotaboutthedrugs @Gemma_Stalked

❤️ 11th October 2017 - I Love My Job!

I LOVE my job.

Today I saw two clients. I enjoyed helping them both. One has a reputation for being negative and lazy.... he wasn’t with me! Actually got him to apply for a job with the Royal Mail! And set him homework to check their website for more jobs.... and he ‘was’ dead against training / education.. even managed to change his mind on that one.

The other appointment was just an introduction, and he was lovely too.

Yesterday I ended up having to do a registration completely on my own... my mentor was on a conference call. Well she said conference call, it sounded more like a personal chat. Anyway, did it... all on my own... perfect!!!

I never got one registration correct in my last role, it was so complicated. And if there was one error, you couldn’t correct it. The two hour registration session had to be respected.

Disclosed to two colleagues how depressed I was before I got the job offer and my intentions. I hope I didn’t shock them.

So, whilst I will always be an addict (even if I’m clean), and most likely always be a junkie (banging up occasionally), it doesn’t mean I cannot be a person who contributes positively to society.

God sent me two angels on Wednesday the 27th.

J and A

#itsnotaboutthedrugs

@Gemma_Stalked