06th February 2016 - Cameras And Tracking Equipment

Update 2018 - Naturally, knowing I didn't have privacy, combined with speed, made me paranoid.  However, I have actually found a company which does make recording equipment so tiny you can hide it in screws.  In relation to the hinges, again, I still believe they may have something hidden in, as there's a few, which only have the paint removed in a small section (as below) and even when I paint over it, they end up with the paint scratched off again. These hinges also give RF (radio frequency) readings, which when I have a mobile that isn't hacked, I can get the videos to confirm this added on my blog.

Screws that look like mini cameras. They Side of them

Weird hinge

Weird hinge (listening device)

Wall with weird circuit boards 

Weird circuit boards found in wall

My Fat Ass In Rehab

Enjoy! I was a disgusting fatty this time last year.

And unless my parents tell the truth, I’ll be on drugs (and skinny) for the rest of my (short) life 

#itsnotaboutthedrugs

@Gemma_Stalked

Things That Make Me Happy

Ok, watching The Happiness Film I SkyArtsHD.

The bloke trying to be happy had made a list of what makes him happy every day. And he’s going to check if he’s done these activities each day. 

I’m going to try to

1) Think one think that I’m grateful for. Bird, song,  rainbow, snow, lucky penny, nice smile, compliment 

2) Spend half an hour with Orion minimum daily.

2) Spend half an hour with the bunnies each day, giving all three of them a 5 minute cuddle when I bring them in.

4) Compliment a stranger

5) Help someone with buggy, walking frame, giving up seats on public transport 

6) Send some naughty messages to someone who turns me on

7) Give a compliment 

8) Work hard to keep my relationships with R***, B**** from Drug Therapy who I haven’t seen for 2 years, A***** who I got Ron and Reg off, B****, K** and K*** from Rehab and hopefully D**, F****, D**** and U***** from work. M** from the JCP we're linked with. 

9) Stroke all the happy dogs and cats I see in the streets 

10) Look for lucky pennies

11) Continue to always be polite, thank bus drivers, offer my seat, help the elderly or those who are blind. The latter treat me like normal decent human. They can’t see it’s the terrible terrible junkie.

Tarot Reading 2015 - WOW, SO MUCH ALREADY TRUE!!

Future Influences

Dream world (the crazy world I lived in when so many people involved in stalker watch)

Imagination (again, relates to the above)

Occult powers (evil things my family did/permitted)

Subconscious (their behaviour increasing my drug use)

Dreams (of escaping them, via suicide at the time, now moving ... mind you there’s an update on this)

Uncertainty (would I live? Would I survive their abuse)

Emotional crisis (lost everything and then my family dropped me too)

Clear sky’s, sun & warmth (I’m hopeful this is my move)

Negative Feelings

Strength (had to be to go through all that abuse!!)

Growth (Longreach, decision to leave London and be with my sober friends ... which they may have ruined now..,)

Travel (Longreach and hopefully returning to Devon)

Tests (all the fucking abuse from my family when I fucking needed them)

Challenges (see above)

Hurdles (again... everything they do to me)

Triumphant (the two documentary offers, the publishers and TV producers following me, the legal people following me...)

Achievement in career (sorting out another job after my fuck up June last year against all odds... e.g. - them doing things like making my alarms not go off and making sure my colleague all knew the bullshit they spread about me, meaning I knew I wouldn’t be kept on after my probabtion, regardless of smashing my targets month in month out)

Good News (hopefully getting to tell the truth!! I’ve had two documentary producers contact me. And unlike them, I’m happy to be congruent and let the world know until mid 2014, they were decent fucking people, and yet when I actually needed them, they turned to the most scummiest, disgusting, evil, nasty, pathetic low life’s ever.)

Fulfilment of Ambitions (getting the truth told) 

Victory (getting them prosecuted)

Solution to problems (them going to jail)

Overcoming opposition (letting everyone know it’s my family who are the evil scum bags not me)

Satisfaction (all of the above)

Envy (them... of me obviously) 

Family & Friends

Constant work needed to achieve (I believe this is constant work needed to get my family prosecuted)

Success (to the above. Yay!)

Change is coming (me escaping, them in jail)

Past brings rewards (their lies and abuse, makes for an excellent book/documentary and for me ££)

New money (again, above)

Hopes & Ideals

Lesson learned (me using... or them abusing. As long as the truth is told, I don’t mind either)

Material and spiritual triumph, happy ending (I’m praying to god I can move and be happy, however, I recon until the truth is told, it’ll still be a battle... coz it’s CLEARLY not about the drugs. It’s about them abusing me until I kill my self to protect their reputations... but 4 versus one, hasn’t beaten me yet)

End of chapter (my move, them in prison)

Joy (for me and my pets!)

TBC 

06th February 2016 - Nokia With Tracking Device in Battery

Look at how poorly this battery is made tand the rectangular tracking device which there was removed from the bottom (left side bottom)

Device above 

Update 2018 - I now realise every single device I have had for a long time has been hacked or had some kind of shit put into it.  This nokia with the dodgy battery was not the last.

Dear Daddy - Letter 2016

This is goodbye for you but not for me. I said good bye years ago. When you ignored me in the park.

My heart has never healed.

You ‘were’ a good dad. Until 2015.

An IT wizard 

A super footballer... black dot... you know what I mean!

A DIY master.

I ‘was’ so proud of the wardrobe you built in my bedroom. Even if the wood pattern looked like scary faces.

You’re a human calculator... 12 / 7 x 2.4 + 52 =??

But you were too strict and punished me badly as a child. Calling me stupid, frequently, when I made errors on my homework. Beating me so I was scared of you.

Then when nan died you changed. You cried and hugged me. You apologised. You said you’d be the best daddy ever and look after your little girl.

20th June 2018 - Journal

Well last night, as soon as I attempt to go to sleep, I hear the drilling noise again.  This bastards are so selfish.  It was 4am!!  The drill isn't a loud drill, and naturally they are using a low revolution thingy on it.  If they did it when I was watching TV, or in the garden with my rabbits, I would not have heard shit.  I definitely heard my father and brother whispering in the room which is next to the side of the room with my TV on (neighbour's house).

Right now I am very bitter over needing to purchase a new phone due to them.  However, every time I have to haul my ass to the library to send an email, or write on my blog, is giving me the strength to ensure I definitely do this injunction... And more.

Fuckers also turned off my alarm, so I didn't wake up at 10am.  Fucking arseholes.  

Tarot - November 2014

This was my tarot reading I must have done for myself whilst in Detox, as it's labelled Whether to Stay Because of Medication

* 8 Wands
* 7 Swords
* 10 Cups
* The Moon
* The World
* Knight of Swords

8 Wands - Card for patience.  Things cannot be forced of hurried.  Use energy to move forward.  Feeling guilty about something can't change the past.  Forgive yourself and shape future.  Health - Patience and calm are necessary.  Anxious and fearful will not help.  Don't fear the worse or cause suffering. (THIS RELATES TO THE DRUG ADDICTION AND FEELING GUILTY)

7 Swords - Not being ethical.  Prying into others lives.  Feel being spied on (OH MY FUCKING GOD, HOW RIGHT!!!!!)  Don't cheat.  Make sure you do the right way so nothing to worry about (POSSIBLY DUE TO MY THOUGHTS THAT AS I WAS ONLY ON HALF A DOSE OF RITALIN I WOULD GO BACK TO TAKING MEDS ONE DAY AND USING SPEED THE NEXT).  Health - Get 2-3 opinions.  Many ways to heal.

10 Cups - Uplifting and happy card, mature and grown up.  Happy family life.  Spiritual fulfilment.  Health - May significantly improve.  ADHD is not under my control.  Stressing won't change it (MAYBE THIS IS WHAT I COULD HAVE HAD, IF I DIDN'T RELAPSE)

The Moon - Seems confusing but important to be patient. More psychic than normal.  Trust instincts.  In reverse this is less clear and misinterpreted.  Will take longer to be patient (MAYBE REFERRING TO 4 YEARS OF ABUSE)  Health - Listen to Doctor but get 2nd opinion if not feeling right.  Don't take drugs (HAHAHAHA!)

The World - Weight of world.  Not easy time.  Card of completion (END OF MY NICE LIFE WHERE I LOVED MY FAMILY?)  Almost there, don't quit.  Health on upswing, try alternative meds.  Follow instinct and educate

Knight of Swords - Energy at peak.  News (ME BEING IN THE SUN??)  Coming and accomplishment.  Health - Good news, but slow down.  Do own home work.  Harness own energy and healing power.

LARGE NOTES

Since my phone being hacked by these disgusting people, I've started writing large notes in my pad, as I cannot use my phone for much.  I make these notes large so people staring at me on the tube could read them.

Just made £100k selling my house.  Abused, lies for 4 years.  Truth coming soon.

Did you know, I've begged for their help.  Instead they've lied and abused me for 4 years.  I've been raped coz of them.  They've destroyed everything including my career.

They are liars.  How would I work full time if true?  Pay mortgage, bills, taxes? Just want to move and be happy.  They want me dead.  All I needed was help.

Why has no one asked me?

Do I look like a (not complete)

I can't take being abused anymore
- Not safe in house I own 
- Hacked every mobile inc. 2 iPhone X
- Ruined career
- Got raped
- Destroyed life

They want me to kill myself so they can (not complete)

Lyrics - June 2018

My friend's can't understand the new me
That's understandable man
Think how banana's you'd be
You'd be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo and everybody's looking at you

Eminem