Future Influences
Dream world (the crazy world I lived in when so many people involved in stalker watch)
Imagination (again, relates to the above)
Occult powers (evil things my family did/permitted)
Subconscious (their behaviour increasing my drug use)
Dreams (of escaping them, via suicide at the time, now moving ... mind you there’s an update on this)
Uncertainty (would I live? Would I survive their abuse)
Emotional crisis (lost everything and then my family dropped me too)
Clear sky’s, sun & warmth (I’m hopeful this is my move)
Negative Feelings
Strength (had to be to go through all that abuse!!)
Growth (Longreach, decision to leave London and be with my sober friends ... which they may have ruined now..,)
Travel (Longreach and hopefully returning to Devon)
Tests (all the fucking abuse from my family when I fucking needed them)
Challenges (see above)
Hurdles (again... everything they do to me)
Triumphant (the two documentary offers, the publishers and TV producers following me, the legal people following me...)
Achievement in career (sorting out another job after my fuck up June last year against all odds... e.g. - them doing things like making my alarms not go off and making sure my colleague all knew the bullshit they spread about me, meaning I knew I wouldn’t be kept on after my probabtion, regardless of smashing my targets month in month out)
Good News (hopefully getting to tell the truth!! I’ve had two documentary producers contact me. And unlike them, I’m happy to be congruent and let the world know until mid 2014, they were decent fucking people, and yet when I actually needed them, they turned to the most scummiest, disgusting, evil, nasty, pathetic low life’s ever.)
Fulfilment of Ambitions (getting the truth told)
Victory (getting them prosecuted)
Solution to problems (them going to jail)
Overcoming opposition (letting everyone know it’s my family who are the evil scum bags not me)
Satisfaction (all of the above)
Envy (them... of me obviously)
Family & Friends
Constant work needed to achieve (I believe this is constant work needed to get my family prosecuted)
Success (to the above. Yay!)
Change is coming (me escaping, them in jail)
Past brings rewards (their lies and abuse, makes for an excellent book/documentary and for me ££)
New money (again, above)
Hopes & Ideals
Lesson learned (me using... or them abusing. As long as the truth is told, I don’t mind either)
Material and spiritual triumph, happy ending (I’m praying to god I can move and be happy, however, I recon until the truth is told, it’ll still be a battle... coz it’s CLEARLY not about the drugs. It’s about them abusing me until I kill my self to protect their reputations... but 4 versus one, hasn’t beaten me yet)
End of chapter (my move, them in prison)
Joy (for me and my pets!)
TBC
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