❤️ The Bug Infestation Has Returned

And then I read this article 

https://dengarden.com/cleaning/Invisible-biting-mites-and-black-mold

This is exactly what’s happening to me! I have mould in bathroom!!

Last time my fore finger on my right hand swelled up so bad and needed 5 operations to clear the puss/fluid. 

Now my middle finger on my left hand. I’m trying to drain the puss Daily, as I can’t have time off work!! I was even wearing the same fucking ring on that finger, I used a saw blade and pliers and cut it off last night. It was beginning to hurt.

Downstairs last night I used Windex and baking powder (cleaning version) on anything porous (materials, wood etc) and I used bleach on my floors and the cat hasn’t spent the whole day out of the house today.

I bathed and used mouthwash on my skin after and wasn’t itching like a loon all night.

Gonna have to keep my house like a show home... and when I move, everything porous needs to be fucking cleaned before I bring it into the new house.

This problem coincided with selling my house and getting  lazy with cleaning.

Why don’t doctors know about this???! I was fucking sectioned partly due to this!! And many other stories of invisible biting bugs on the internet and people being sectioned.

Clearly I’m extremely sensitive / allergic to mould spores, hence why others aren’t bothered.

I’m gonna print this article and show it to my psyche! And my second infected finger!!

Oh, some mystery blue packet of powder turned up for me! Dunno where from as it arrived at N’s and he fucking opened it. Turns out it was MDMA or a similar compound. If I had known I would have booty bumped and not injected it. 

Anyway, I’m starving, gonna eat.. and maybe smoke later so I can blitz the upstairs later.

This problem means SOOOOO much work! Washing, Ironing, hoovering, mopping, bleach, Windex, baking powder (cleaning variety), mouthwash on me after a bath. 

Right gonna go. 

J x

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❤️ Canadian’s, Readers, Worldwide - WOW

Wow, big up my Canadian Readers most daily page views today. 

And then Czechia - I ain’t gotta lie, don’t have a clue where you are, but I assume around Russia and Poland.

I am so blessed so many people from I’m other countries read me.

Whether I disgust you, intrigue you or just interest you, if you can use my experience for saving someone else, feel free.

Everything happens for a reason, learn from mine

Apologises for the recent errors in my blog, my phone has been broken x

UPDATE - I now realise my readers from other countries are probably related to the nasty cunts who will be responsible for my Suicide!

Fuck you all!! 

I earn £30k a year

My house is worth £320k

I have £220k equity

I’m most likely fucking better than you earning £7ph!! 13 of you in a 3 Bed house.

Judgemental, ignorant, gullible, pricks who clearly don’t understand the concept of empthay.

Karma will screw you over

(P.s - all the nice readers, ignore my anger, but if you were stared at daily, by dual language people, it would eventually get to you too!!) x x

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@Gemma_Stalked

❤️ Contacting Sky TV

My experience of contacting Sky TV. This is my Facebook message to them

Yes! But when you combine a call centre in India / poor English with a slightly broken iPhone which doesn’t go loud anymore, I’m not really sure what the hell happened during that conversation.

Why when I push the ‘are you thinking of leaving sky’ button do I get instantly connected to some bloke called Dave, who will give me the most expensive Sky Package free for 6 months (you LOSING MONEY), but when I’m trying to give you some money, it takes half an hour to get through and end I speaking to Rajesh, whose sold me something, but I’m not quite sure what due to a really poor line and Rajesh needing a few more ESOL classes (yes I admit, my mobile only multiplied this!).

Surely Sky wants my money?

I’ve sent a letter of complaint.

Do want to know what my package actually is, cost and whether Internet has returned to what I originally requested.

Thanks Mark... do you know Dave? 😉 joke. 

* this message and it’s contents contain disproportionate amounts of sarcasm, but endeavours to bring a little humour to you day 

X

Funnily enough, no reply.

Moral of the story is, if you need to contact Sky, pushing the ‘Are you thinking of leaving Sky’ option

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@Gemma_Stalked

❤️ TO THE JUDGEMENTAL, GULLIBLE ARSEHOLES WITH NO EMPATHY

I had a few funny looks on the tube on the way home... why is that you ask? Don’t you get funny looks everyday?? 

Yes I do, but I enjoy these looks.

You see, I was sick to death with that hacked iPhone. It was an iPhone 7 purchased in March/April and I’m still paying for it... Having my money stolen, the tracking, the lack of privacy... I have so much I haven’t sorted out in the past two weeks due to this. 

And... the cherry on the cake... going to the iPhone Store on Tuesday, I attempted to have my iPhone restored again. However it crashed the first Mac, the second didn’t work well either. The genius I was with, had to attempt to restore it 5-6 times as my serial number free iPhone wouldn’t restore back to factory default. Then, when it did finally restore, whilst no one laid a finger on it.. The home button stopped and the assistive touch appeared.

My mind was set... A loan and a new phone. The beautiful new X was £1,000... wow!! With Apple Care £1,200... that would mean I could pay only my mortgage and nothing else with my salary. But the iPhone 8 was £699 and Apple Care £120. That would still be tough, but I have no PC, no landline, my iPad doesn’t work.. I have nothing else to communicate to the world with. I felt I had no choice and applied for a loan online and was approved for £3,000.

I sent my bank statements, but still hadn’t heard from them this morning. So, I decided I’d get another payday loan if needed. I have avoided communicating with anyone for 2 weeks. Things that required my attention were left unattended and naturally caused me a huge amount of anxiety. 

Blocking this out, in an attempt to carry on as normal, I knew I had no choice.

I was not going to get a older model. I would definitely upgrade. And I didn’t want second hand for two reasons. One, if they could predict where I was going to make a purchase, the phone may have been already tampered with. Secondly, Apple Care. £120 and ANY DAMAGE to my phone, covered for two years. I spend a lot more on repairing my phone. Software, hardware, damn cracked screens. Anything bar being lost or stolen. The genius confirmed should my 7 had Apple Care, it would be traded for a new phone. 

So lunch time today, I bombed it to Oxford Circus. ‘iPhone 8, silver, 64g (I hardly use 1/10 of my 128g) with Apple Care please’ I said to my genius. Her name was the same as mine, but spelt differently.

I told her my story, phone going ‘missing’, finding springboard, phone getting hot, internet drained quickly, the restores, the AppleSamsungSPIController extension showing up in analytics, the crazy photos showing on after I had erased iPhone to factory default, the stolen money from my online account and crashing the iPhone Store’s Mac.

‘I can’t imagine, you must have so much anxiety? If it was me, I wouldn’t sleep at night’ she replied in complete awe of my tale as to why I was here today. 

‘Yes, exactly, I’ve found myself wanting a couple of glasses of vino at night to calm my head down. I have ADHD and I get bad anxiety as a symptom’

‘I think I have ADHD too’ she replied.

Immediately I agreed. She wasn’t as hyper as me, but also spoke really fast and was incredibly chatty. The comments she made about anxiety, disorganisation and her time keeping.

She then told me if I was buying an 8 or a X, I could pay over 24 months with an interest free loan. The X was calling me with its smooth glass screen begging me to touch it. It worked out to cost £699 for a silver and I think £120 for Apple Care. The X was £999 and Apple Care £199. 

‘Did you know with the iPhone 8 and the X you can get an interest free loan over 24 months.... my head stopped listening... interest free??? I did ask for the iPhone 8 monthly cost, but I also wanted to know the X’s cost. 

‘The X is £69 per month and that includes Apple Care’

I’ve done my maths now and I realise that doesn’t quite add up.. but that was incredibly adorable.

‘As it’s interest free, should I wish to lay a lump sum or pay it off, that’s ok? There’s no early repayment fees?’

‘No, it’s interest free, but you would need to pay Barclay’s.’

The 8 had long gone from my mind. Decision was made. 

‘I’ll have an iPhone X WITH Apple Care, in silver, 64g please’

And thankfully it was in stock and my credit check went through.

So right now, I’m typing this on a iPhone X 😛

Anyway.... the funny looks on the tube... well funnier than normal. Was the bizarre look from my fellow POS commenters who think ruining a young girl’s life acceptable, where looks of confusion when I pulled out a brand new phone costing a grand.

You’ve all been told, and stupidly believe, I’m a terrible, terrible junkie and you must watch out, probably under the bullshit guise of my safety. Therefor I’d steal 50p reduced broken up eyeshadow, when purchasing £12 worth of other items. I certainly don’t have money to spare for expensive technology. Surely it all goes on my crack habit.

WRONG!!

FUCK YOU!

Sending love to all the secret junkies who work, pay their bills and appear normal. 

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❤️ JUNKIE DIET

This is what my diet, especially today... has mainly consisted of 

... I’m waiting....

😆 JOKE

I couldn’t find any plastic bottles to make some squash. I rarely make it in a cup, as I will be up and down all night.

Anyway, I know you may find it hard to believe... I have quite a few empty bottles like this.

And I remembered glass doesn’t disintegrate, so is actually better than plastic.

Here’s the proof

Bottle on the right has some left over in! You can clearly see it’s less opaque than the the real wine and squash is darker...

But, unless you see me make the bottle and strictly track that, as long as I buy Berry flavour squash, or / and have a bottle of the real stuff in view... it’s gonna be pretty hard to tell whether I’m drinking or not!

I LOVE the idea. No more lemon squash for me! 

Oh and the reason my diet has mainly been squash today, didn’t wake up till 8pm... didn’t sleep until 10am today. 

That’s for another post... anyway!

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❤️ Jackpot! Reason I Was Sectioned

If you read my previous post you would’ve seen that I have now realised that my chronic itching is most likely due to mould allergy. 

If you have a lot of mould in your house you end up with an excess of dust mites as dust mites thrive on mould. 

This explains the visual effects I was able to see. 

if you look through my blog you will see in 2015 I have mentioned the bugs in quite a few posts. 

When I return to this house there was a lot of mould in the bathroom. I did not remove it properly I just painted over it. However I have now just discovered that my mattress is pretty much filled with mould. 

I have already emailed my counsellor he works with my psychiatrist the article which I have posted in a previous post. 

what is described in the article is pretty much exactly the same as the symptoms I am suffering from. 

The mould can get into anything porous. So apart from plastic glass and metal, anything can get infected. in fact previously when I suffered from this as it was so bad some items which were made from a soft plastic also got infected. 

This means that around 70% of my belongings could be filled with this mould. 

When I knew everything will have to be cleaned thoroughly and placed into Ziploc bags.  It can only be bought into my new house plants I am sure it is completely free of any mould. otherwise my new house or just get infected too. 

I need to get rid of my current mattress. But there is no point getting a replacement until I am out of this house. So I will be sleeping on the sofa for another two months. My sofa is quite small and not very comfortable. 

I might start taking my summer clothes and Other items that are porous, that I don’t really need and getting them cleaned now and put into storage. 

Why don’t doctors know about this. Unfortunately for myself the symptoms get worse between 2 AM and 5 AM. Naturally when you’re addicted to speed you don’t sleep.  Meaning I got to see the worst of it. 

I knew it wasn’t in my head. I could see my rabbit jumping around as he too was bitten. He would sit in the cat litter tray. As this mould likes warm moist places. Cat litter naturally absorbs moisture. Meaning he got a little relief asked in there. 

I have a lot of photos and videos,  Sharing the results of what happens when you have a bad mould infection.  You could see the dust mites move on my rabbit straw if I sprayed it with bleach. 

also after I would bang up lots of little black dots would appear around where there was blood on my arm. 

if anyone has any experience of this please let me know how you manage to cope. I am breaking point. Not only to my parents go out of their way to make my life a complete misery, which in turn has caused me to have chronic paranoia that I expect I will suffer from for the rest of my life. But I’m also suffering from a condition that is hardly recognised by medical professionals. Now I must go and cover myself in Listerine and coconut oil in a desperate attempt to get some relief from my itching. 

I really feel like I should quit while I’m ahead. Should I encounter another bad experience it will destroy me. If I don’t kill myself and doubtedly I will end up in a mental institution for a very long time. 

and as I am aware you don’t get any treatment in mental institutions. Prisoners are treated better. You are just locked away without any therapy any counselling and you can’t even conversed with any of the nurses her because they are too busy dealing with the people with real mental problems. 

All I have is -

My cat

My house

My job (which knowing me I’m likely to lose)

Two people I can call real friends

And another two people who are junkie friends

There is no family to love or support me.There is no partner to be by my side. Financially I was like on myself. And this house will require a major cleaning routine every single day until I’m out of here. 

God has given me too much to cope with. 

Jay 

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@Gemma_Stalked

❤️ TOR & Dream Market

So after those people who are also known as my family caused a horrific fall out between myself and N, I decided to download TOR, eager to register with the notorious drug eBay Silk Road. For those of you unfamiliar with TOR, it’s an acronym for The Onion Router, and it enables you to access the dark net. 

The dark net is the uncensored, untraceable version of Internet Explorer or Safari. Therefore within it’s webpages, which are inaccessible via any other internet router, criminals, peadophiles

Here is a screen shot of TOR loading

Here is TOR

It didn’t take me long to discover Dream Market, a much better, easier to use and more professional website.

Here are a couple of the links to the website

http://jd6yhuwcivehvdt4.onion/

http://lchudifyeqm4ldjj.onion/

And welcome to Dream Market 

❤️ SAVE £ AIRBNB

www.airbnb.co.uk/c/gemmas3978

Use this link for £25 off your first air BnB booking

Feel free to share

A typical junkie would not just share this with you. They would tell you if you paid them a fiver they would give you a £20 discount.

I don’t even know what I get.

Hang on give me a sec

Okay I get £15 for everyone who uses my link and book a room costing more than £55. If you then share your link and somebody booked a room costing morning £55 I get a one off payment of £55.

You can earn up to £3800 so please share the Airbnb love.

Please note the money and is held as credit on your account meaning your accommodation Will be reduced or free depending on how many credits you have

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❤️ Suicide Note To My Beautiful R***

Please make sure the press get this blog. Go to the Daily Mail as if you include online, it’s the most read newspaper in the world. Definitely not that cretinous newspaper which fabricates it’s stories, such as the Sun and the crap it has written about me.

You were a good friend. When we met in rehab, at first I was jealous of the more petite, more blonde, better singer, better drawer girl, with a darker fake tan than mine.

Then we discovered we shared the same birthday.

You did angel cards, me Tarot.

On J**’s bday bash, as we were the two newbies, there wasn’t room for us in the front train carriage.

We took the back, and laughed more than anyone else.

You’re perfection at doing my tan... and then the little reveal you made after rehab!! I wish we had known in their... could have definitely had way more fun!!

You met me at Victoria when I left and got me an Uber back to my house. 

As I have no friends... addiction when injecting is involved is very isolating, this touched my heart more than you can imagine.

Meeting you for a few drinks whilst we job hunted and laughing at how good our rehab was...

Our openness about certain things which lead to many fun filled evenings!! The best thing was, the next day, there was no uncomfortable silences... we just carried on being best mates like nothing had happened.

You’re the most prettiest girl I know, inside and out.. I was stunned our fun nights happened and definitely bragged a lot about them.

You’re so kind, such a beautiful person R***, I am blessed to have had you in my life.

Meeting L*** your identical twin was the freakiest moment ever!!! Shit!! Two R***’s. I had loads of ‘wait a minute’ moments as my brain tried to keep up with it was L*** and not you I spoke to.

In the event of my death, all my clothes, shoes, bags, belts and accessories are first pick to you and L***. I know neither of you have much in the way of things. I want all my designer stuff (I have a real Louis Vuitton) to go to you.

My Tiffany jewellery and Pandora bracelets are yours.

My beautiful R*** and me.

Waiting for the bus to Plymouth

In Cloud 9 (aka R***’s room in rehab) - Fake tan curtesy of R*** 

Partying at mine - if you’ve seeen Kate Benniston’s posts about my house being a shit hole, as you can see, it’s not!)

❤️ Kate - Girl Who Keep Commenting

Actually stole a load of my stuff when she was cleaning!

Yes I’ve noticed missing DVDs and CDs.

Haha! I bet this horrible infestation takes over her house now!

Notice my nice size 8 jumper is stretched beyond belief, so that heffer lump clearly tried it on before realising that a size 14 would look ridiculous in it

She started panicking she was itchy when I said all my belongings would need to be chucked.

Ignore her spam comments

Oh, she also steals from the £1 Shop! WTF! I mean, Boots... ok... £1 Shop? Loser!

Haha! You do realise each time you comment you draw attention to this blog, and as author I have full control over what is visable.

Kept my blog’s publicity quiet for a week.

< 20 views a day. Kate’s obsessive comment posting has brought me back up to 140 views. 

Idiot.

And she calls me a junkie.... she lost her kids to drugs. And she was asking N to have sex with her so another baby can be put into the care system.

She was begging me to get her a contract phone, coz this junkie works and can get credit and she can’t.

Carry on loser and I’ll post your pictures next.

You’re the one who let crack dealers in her yard to get £10 worth of crack crumbs a day. You’re a junkie babes. 

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@Gemma_Stalked