❤️ SHARE YOUR DRUGS NIGHTMARES - COCAINE

This was a comment from one of my readers. Thanks!  I have bought I had a massive addiction to cocaine which progressed to crack. Since IVing I’ll never return to sniffing, I hope you don't mind me making this a whole post J, thanks for your contribution

My drugs nightmare I was addicted to cocaine. I started when I was 15. Just once a week at first. By 17 I was doing it 2-4 times a week. By 18 I was 5-7 times a week. Aged 19 I used daily. By 20 I was spending £100 a day. I used at work. I lost my job. Lost my home went back to my mom and dads.carried on till my dad found out I maxed his master card on a $5,000 binge. 

❤️ SHARE YOUR DRUGS NIGHTMARES - MEOW MEOW

This was a comment from one of my readers. Thanks!  I have bought MCat over the net, not been impressed. Maybe my ROA, which is IV. I hope you don't mind me making this a whole post J, thanks for your contribution

I was addicted to meow meow. It started as a weekend treat, but the cum downs were real bad. Man!! I started taking the day after just to function. I loose weight, soon taking every day. Den it was banned. I wAs real sad, but secretly happy. The come Down was awful. But I did it. Like reading your blog. Nice as I'm not only one with addict to legal highs. 

❤️ 30th October 2017 - Journal

Ok well I’ve finally come to a logical conclusion... I am allergic to dust / mould mites.. and this is what is driving me crazy.

It’s also partly the reason behind my sectioning.

The bugs!!

The creepy crawly feeling.

I was itching all day, and before I left Boots, like a Victorian, with my scripted cocaine (methylphenidate) and scripted opiates (buprenorphine) I also purchased some Claratin and Benadryl. Both antihistamines. One for day and one for night. Came home and took a day one. Within an hour. Bar my hair, the itching finally ceased.

When I went to clear out my bedroom, suddenly I’m itchy again and my nose is running like a fucker. 

I knew this wasn’t in my head!

I knew it was real! 

This was half the reason for my sectioning.

Yet, the itching, affecting porous items the combination of mould really are exact to those with dust mite allergies which thrive to unbearable numbers when present in mould.

This house is full of mould. My mattress full of mould, in my bathroom I painted over the mould. I’m pretty sure there is mould which is been hidden by wood too.

I think the surge in dust mites causes the visual affects I have seen. For some Reason I have noticed black spots appearing in materials such as blankets and would chopping boards. They appear to been thing but they’re all fluff. And if the item is black clothing, for example, it will get covered in white fluffs. 

Certain types of clothing that a lot of bobbles. Other material to like pillow covers. Certain blankets get black spots appearing constantly.

I hear this week and my floor with bleach nearly every day. Yeah I can guarantee you blackspots will appear moments after doing so. 

I have now discovered mould spores can affect anything, including grout. Which is why mine doesn’t stay down.

Anything porous. Bar glass, metal or plastics. 

I stand to lose anything which isn’t made of what is listed directly above.

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❤️ REVIEW - 4F-MPH

Ok, here’s my view.

4-Fluoromethylphenidate

0.5 g

Used Intravenously (about 6 shots as it took so long to dissolve

I also take well over the max dose of Concerta. The max is 56mg. I’m scripted 90mg!!

4-Fluoromethylphenidate (commonly known as 4F-MPH) is a novel synthetic stimulant of the substitutes phenethylamine and piperidine class that produces long-lasting euphoriant, and stimulating effects when administered. It is a closely related structural analog of the commonly prescribed ADHD drug methylphenidate (known by the brand-names Ritalin and Concerta).

Methylphenidate below

 Thank you Wikipedia!!

4F-MPH is an analogue of Ritalin. Methylphenidate.

I was hopeful it would be super strong so my crazy Ritalin tolerance didn’t matter. I was wrong.

Shared a 1g with N. Friday night we also had £40 of coke IV, £40 of b IV and £60 of crack smoked.

Used a little before the proper goodies arrived, didn’t feel much, it was rather disappointing. However patients has never been one of my skills and did not manage the extremely unreasonable 5 min wait for it to dissolve properly. 

Then knock knock, the coke arrived, then N with the crack and b. 

I mixed a bit of the 4F with some cooked b which was left over and used a bit towards the end of the night.

So my real basis is on the couple of hits I used today, I had nothing else to alter any reaction from the substance. I have a feeling, for me to reach the point of any euphoria I’d need to bang up half a G in a go. Or, withdraw for a good week off Concerta. Might be worth while to keep, as a Concerta back up. I’d try it via booty bump.

Some drugs, you inject them and it’s WOW, never taking via another route of admin again. Whilst others are... why did I both to inject this?? Ketamine is in the latter for example.

This drug will go into my ‘May try again’ pile.

So

Long lasting euphoria - Nope. No euphoria. It made me feel like when Concerta had lost its magic but still worked. Yeah, lots of blog posts created, lots of tweeting... haven’t done anything productive in the house... maybe down to the other substances or the hangover or come down from other substance. It does have stimulatory properties. Friday I was using from 7pm and fell asleep at 10am. Today I woken up at 8pm, finished the last 2-3 hits (my works were appalling. Thanks MDART.

It should be more euphoric than methylphenidate and ‘recreational’. Thinking about my family got me a bit emotional.

I had NO anxiety, felt the need to re-dose (but had benzos for after last shot) nor did I have muscle spasms. N, definitely got prang (paranoid). At one point he must of thought I was texting someone when I was writing this and tried to get a sly look over. He also kept making a funny mouth noise, he does often on stims. Like a closed mouth click. These affects are supposed to happen less with 4F than MPH, but N was clearly on his stimulant buzz.

Oh... it’s a great appetite suppressed. I’d recommend booty bumping AT MOST other wise I’d say, wrap in rizla and bomb it.

It was only €18 a gram, so it’s a maybe.

Jay x x

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❤️ 01st December 2017 - Journal

Well I can honestly say thank god A** is my manager now and not J**. And good riddance to N*****.

I think A** purposively held back the meeting  he was supposed to have with me on Monday until today so he could make his own judgment on me. And I’m grateful he did.

The report written last week reprimanded me for being late when the tubes were running. J** told me I should have contacted them to say the tubes weren’t running. I confirmed I did. I both called and emailed using WiFi to say I was stuck. It really appears anyone else is ok to run late apart from me.

Anyway, I’ve been in before 9am every day this week. Before A** every day. And on one day, before everyone. 

N***** had been moaning that I had knocked the mouse and keyboard wire out of the back of her PC when I got up from my desk. A** said he didn’t think that was a fair comment, as lack of office space cannot be blamed on me. A** said he planned to change the office layout anyway and I pointed out the office completely breached health and safety legislation. If I have a customer sat next to me and D***** has one next to her... I’m trapped. If there was a fire I wouldn’t be able to get out.

J** also wrote I was disorganised and not able to prioritise my work load. However A** came over to confirm the progress of my workload, with about 20 different candidates and could see, bar maybe 2, I had actioned all outstanding. He sad that he didn’t want to send last week’s report as it was information fed to him, not anything he could confirm was a problem. I’m pretty sure my colleague didn’t provide him with such positive information on her outstanding candidates

He told me after he had seen me properly this week, he actually thought I would be managing the project soon. He said he could see that a role like this was perfect for me, as it kept my ADHD busy, as it is a busy chaotic role.

J** also made a huge song and dance about me being not dressed appropriately for work. I explained occasionally I had brought high heals and swapped into them. He also deleted that point off the report too.

J** and his manager J** sent a report on our figures for November saying we had achieved 
3 out of 19 starts
1 out of 6 job starts
1 out of 6 26 week sustainments

I quickly replied saying the figures were actually 
15/19
4/6
4/6

Funnily enough unlike when others corrected their figures, the charts weren’t changed with my updates!!

A** made a point telling the director he thinks I’m a really good worker.... so my time here may not be so brief.

Over and out.

❤️ 14th February 2018 - Meanwhile In The News

And meanwhile in the news

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5253629/Doctor-escapes-prison-drink-driving-twice.html

So while I have been run out of London, because you don’t like what I chose to do, in my free time, with my money (after paying my mortgage), here’s what a doctor can get up to and it’s all good!

Double standards anyone?

❤️ 13th February 2018 - A Good News Article

And this is why I will not leave my home until the day before the new tenants move in

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5383785/Donal-MacIntyres-wife-arrested-planting-hidden-camera.html

This way, the crafty sickos cannot get into my property and remove any of the nasty devices they have installed.

Meaning, when they are eventually prosecuted, the evidence will still be there.

Karma. I love her.

❤️ 13th February 2018 - Evidence Of Phone Hacking

And here we have the evidence my phone was hacked.

Screen shot of Springboard. The sickos date raped drugged me to do this

Here are screen shots of the error reports. You can clearly see Springboard coming up in them

On this one we have AppleSamsungPSIController which, after some Googling, appears to be the extension for when a Samsung is controlling a hacked iPhone. Fat Cunt has a Samsung 

I also found these extensions in the crash data

MyMobileWatchDogD - Tracking App 

Springboard - Jailbreak

MTLComplienceServer - Tracking App

AppleSamsungSPIController - Samsung controlling my phone?? (intruder caught on camera is Samsung user)

FamilyNotificationd - opens apps to eaves dropping 

WiFiveLoCity - spamming extension 

AskPermissiond - virus

0xbadedbad - Apple / Samsung Serial

AppleSEPManager - Access to finger prints - why mine keep stop working?

AppleMaggieArcAudio - Exposing fancy bear methods - they run a P2P multicast through an HID to access iPhone 7

Anti Anonymous - accessing my location? 

❤️ 13th February 2018 - THE MYSTERY OF THE UNLOCKING DOOR SOLVED

Ok, I have to admit paying £100 for a lock change and still finding your door unlocked is pretty distressing.

Well today that mystery has been solved.

So I left this morning and proceeded to work.

Made it 50 foot down my road and suddenly remember my temazepam.

Promptly turned around and returned.

Went to unlock door..... and it was already unlocked.

So, they don’t have keys to my house. The fitted a fucking self locking / unlocking door.

Arseholes.

I have loads more stuff to fill you in with, but later.

❤️ June 2015 - Once Upon a Time - The Binge Part 4

Got white And b. Kicks out again 

and N**** got some B and smoked some crack.

Kicked out again at some point. Can't believe my parents authorise this.

(This post clearly was not finished... and unfortunately now, my memory is hazy. I will read parts 1, 2 and 3 when I’ve sorted my blog and endeavour to finish this! Jay x)