Firstly, two weeks ago a new girl arrived at work. The receptionist called me over and whispered she said Ade was her manager... I knew it was coming, but no way anticipated it would be this soon. D** has only been there just about a month.
She was introduced to EVERYONE but me. Fair play I am incredibly busy... but my 6 month probation isn’t until 15/04/18, meaning I could be out with a week’s notice.
Two whole days pass. My manager A** then called a meeting with my replacement B***** and D** and I was alone, with the candidates.
I couldn’t do it. Rolled a fag and went and had a cry in the car park.
Eventually I went into A**, almost in tears and said I was worried they would get rid of me, after ALL the fucking hard work I’ve done.
I’ve managed that fucking programme alone since October. My old colleague did some registrations, but from October - February she only ever put ONE job on, and even that was one of mine I gave to her!!
A** assured me I was safe until 31st May.
Earlier than what I would have liked, but the work environment is toxic (metaphorically) and my house in London is toxic (literally), so it’s not that much of a downer.
Plus... she an AMAZING EMPLOYMENT ADVISOR. Much more experience than me!!
Day three I explained to her my negative vibe. No one was told she was starting, I was worried about my job security.. blah blah blah.
I then noticed she was very friendly with the girl who doesn’t like me A*****. We’re ok now. But outside a working environment we would never chose to socialise... do you get what I’m saying.
So... due to the bullshit my ‘loving’ family continued to spread once I had secured employment, the management fucking hated me from day dot. That and the combined abuse which affected my ability to work. Like alarms not going off etc.
Then, I say I’ll be leaving but house not ready until October.
Then I’m told if they find a good EA I’ll have to leave (even though my congruency was due to the dedication I have for my candidates and wanting to give my employer enough time to find a suitable replacement).
Then, a role which is fucking hard to fill is filled.
Then I find out, it’s the mate of the one person I don’t get on with.
B**** is lovely, but these factors will prevent me ever building as good a bond as I would under different circumstances.
She’s very different though... professional I guess. We both worked for another company G**, and both left after a few months.
And while she’s way more experienced, she’s doesn’t have that ability to connect with people like I do..
And that... is the only way I fluked myself through the role and fucking smashed their target leagues month after month.
Only months I wasn’t top was October (started on 15th). January (off sick for two weeks and another week working but super ill) and March I didn’t hit registrations and was just under my 6 month sustainment target, but February I was alone and did double the number of required registrations. So not only do I have 22 new candidates but I’ve been training D** too.
I really love D**. She is so much like me. I know everyone says ‘keep in touch’ when they leave a job but I sincerely hope we do.
I recon she’ll be smashing it, like I have, as she’s proper followed my lead.
Went out for her bday today. Really didn’t wanna go. Glad I forced myself.
Ended up disclosing about my crazy past.. but did send her some evidence to back up my claims. Really hope she doesn’t think I’m crazy.
I worry too much about what people think of me.
And.. the rabbits.. it was carnage. Ron had massive fight with both Cy and Reg. Cy bit the fuck out of me when I tried to stop it.
The house which ‘doesn’t have any damp problems’ now has a hole in the bathroom floor... and the floor looks black and rotten. Which is weird for a house with no damp problems.
Gonna bodge it.
Anyway, I hope the rabbits were just pissed coz they needed more space.
They’re outside now during the day, which is nice.
Right, hopefully I haven’t scared off D** as she invited me out tomorrow and I may join her. I mean, I’ll have gif to force myself, but once out I’ll enjoy it.
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