❤️ 17th October 2017 - Email To R*** My Counsellor

Hi Jay 

you work now and you can afford to pay private rent so get out of the house you don't want, it's simpler than what you think if that is what you want.

I am happy for you that you like your job, that's a very positive move for you, with regard to your detox or blood results you will have to contact John L as I do not have access to medical records.

Warm regards, 

R***

From: Jay

Sent: 12 October 2017 17:59

To: RB

Subject: Are you back??!

R*** I can’t cope in this stupid house. It’s driving me mad. 

I’m now flipping between being the happy, hyper, well liked, confident, funny person I used to be all the time.. when I am at work (which I love by the way), to being suicidal and being permanently intoxicated whilst in that house!

I have so much to do I am really struggling as I feel I’m constantly judged in that house. Which gives me chronic anxiety as I need to be perfect.... even more so when im being watched.

I end up using just to ease my anxiety.

Outside the hours of 7am  •- 6pm i still have major concerns about my mental stability.

I end up taking stupid risks as I’m not sober.

But work is great and I’m doing really well. Just wish I didn’t have to

Come home.

Are you working late any time??

No one has got back to me about detox or my blood results. If I have hep c I think I’ll refuse treatment as I want to die.

Sent from Jay’s iPhone